I stood in my back yard, where everything looked and sounded normal. I stood there with my four dogs, waiting for them to relieve themselves and I was crying, crying tears of grief for my friend whose husband was, at that moment, dying from cancer.
At that moment, my friend was sitting by her husband’s bedside as family gathered, watching her husband fade away as I stood in my backyard waiting for my dogs to relieve themselves. The absurdity of the moment caught me off guard and I looked up towards the heavens and screamed! Nothing made sense anymore.
A smile briefly crossed my lips as the words my husband often reminds me of popped into my head, “You’re right where you’re supposed to be – you’re right where God wants you”! I giggled out loud as I thought, God wants me standing in my back yard watching my dogs relieve themselves when my friend is 700 miles away, watching her husband die?
The smile disappeared as quickly as it appeared. This new pandemic and quarantine was keeping everyone close to home and away from those they loved and it infuriated me. My friend has the faith of a saint and the strength of a warrior, but I knew her heart was breaking and mine was breaking for her and I desperately wanted to be there for her.
But there I stood in my back yard doing the only thing I could do at that moment. I stood there waiting for my dogs to relieve themselves as I cried tears of grief for a life lost and a friend whose life was forever changed.